I will always love you

Its day 62 of deployment and the days & nites are starting to last even longer. I miss the simple things; like the way you held my hand, the way you'd come up behind me and wrap your arms around me, the times you'd randomly show up at my work after you just got off, the random 1am waffle house dances & your 5pm shadow scuffling my face when you kiss me. I miss everything about you.

I was at the post office sending off package #2 and another woman was sending her husband a package as well. We started talking about what service they were in, where they were at, how long they were gone, when they'd hopefully be back, what they asked us to send, etc. All the sudden it felt like family, now I had just meet this woman 5 minutes ago and there was already a bond. I knew exactly how she felt when she laid down at nite saying her prayer with the line "please keep him safe" and how that ache in your heart feels when you pick up his shirt and the smell of his cologne still lingers. As selfish as it may be, I like knowing that someone else feels my pain. Now don't get me wrong, I am as proud as an army-wife-to-be could be and love talking to retired military and other army wives and bragging about my hero. Its just nice to know I'm not alone and I think a lot of other military spouses feel the same way.

I think my favorite part of being an army wife|to-be| (other than the benefits ;] ) is when people find out that my fiancé is in the military and say "oh, I could never do that", I know that Kevin and I have that special kind of love that will last. No, not everyone can handle 6 - 18 month deployments and still be just as in love or even more in love that when they left, or the days of not talking to them and only receiving letters/emails, or not knowing or understanding the full length of their job description, or the value their life is to this country. Its a job itself, but I know that deep down if you can handle that, you can handle anything that life throws at the two of you. That seems to make it worth it in the end(: