Sincerely Yours

I've noticed the nites have gotten longer,
the smiles have gotten few,
your cold heart seems to be growing stronger,
although I still seem to love only you.

With every thought that shifts in my head,
anytime that I think you've been untrue,
I sift thru the twenty-three love letters
I've read again and again from you.

The countless times I've tried,
and I know that you've tried too,
to mend this selfish pride,
and start this love, this friendship anew.

Until the sun arises,
and we settle this heartless war,
until love and pride compromises,
I'll remain sincerely yours.

the reason for loving you.

When people come into contact with me they notice the obvious appearance of a blonde hair, blue eyed girl, a fair complexion with a great big smile. Then when they look further they come across the undeniable large ring I have on my left hand and ask the common questions of "whens the big day?" or "what does your fiancee do?" or "how did he do it?". But out of all the questions that I get asked, my favorite is "Your so young, why do you want to rush getting married?". After pausing so many times and trying to make this person standing in front of me understand, I simply say, "You just have to meet him."
What is love but an expression expressed through actions?
Does he give me everything I want, no. But he gives me everything I need: a loving embrace when I cry, a comic joke when I need a good laugh and two ears that listen to every possible complaint I have after a hard day at work. He opens doors for me, buys me flowers randomly and has them delivered to work on the exact days that I need them, has hands that fit the spaces in between my fingers perfectly, and kisses that make my heart melt.
He has a hankie for every tear that I shed, has a special smile for every different kind of joy he feels, has a glimmer in his eye that he shares only with me. He has the right words at the right time, the sense enough to let me win even though I completely wrong, and a theme song everyday that he sings for me.
He's the only one that I want to fall asleep with at nite, and the first person I want to greet in the morning. Why would I want to "live life" when the person that make my life worth while isn't there to share it with me?
Simply said, "You just have to meet him" and as cliche as it sounds he's the reason for that big smile on my face. :)

Dear Hero

Today marks exactly one year and one month of the best days of my life.
You've lit up my world and uncovered mysteries to my unseen eyes.
These past few month have been anything but easy, I've cried myself to sleep many a nites along with analyzing if the wait was ever going to end. Now, I have been engaged to the most amazing man for 52 days.
I don't know how to explain how you make me feel, I can feel those butterflies fluttering in my stomach with each and every thought of you. Your always on my mind, every second of every day.
Simply put, two is better than one and you're my second half.
I love you more than the amount of stars up above, more than fireflies lingering by, more than the number of times the sun rises into the sky.

smile tho your heart is aching

I'm speechless, no words can explain that feeling that I get when I hear your voice, the vision of your smile or the sweet sweet smell of you. My heart flutters and my knees become weak, you've captivated my attention with those whimsical features you possess.
I never in a million years thought that I would date a soldier, much less marry one. Now? I wouldn't trade it for a thing in the world. He's a blessing beyond any prayer that I've ever prayed before, he's my hero, saving me from myself while he saves others selflessly. That good ole patchy uniform turned the boy that I fancied into the man that I love.
Now only eight more days till I can taste his sweet lips and feel the warmth of his embrace.

the memories of our tomorrow.

The memories of our tommorrow are borrowed from todays acclivities; the many tears, the countless cheers, the limitless fears. The things that grow you together are the very substances that made you set apart, combined into one you breathe fresh life onto the world as you know it. Learning to love in a loveless world mixed with emotions that you don't know how to cultivate into an infiltration of satisfaction. Mending and pretending to convey a deeper euphoria that will only clash in its fabrication.
Marriage: the definition cannot be taught, it has to be attained thru practice. Thru the good and bad, sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer. Its a journey to take hand in hand, despite the fears of tomorrow, the dreariness of today or the regret of yesterday.

dear fiance

Since the day that you walked into my life, everything has felt so right.
You keep me up at nite, running threw my mind, I see you in the back of my eyelids.
You take my breath away with just your smile and I would walk any amount of miles to look into those eyes that demise everything that seems so important at that time. You are mine, and I am yours, without you I don't know how to fly, how to lift my mind off the worldly calamity that rambles in my head. With you I feel one step ahead, like a true thoroughbred of my kind. With you by my side I have all the right words to say, all the brightness I need to add to my day, do you know that you overtake me? There is no mistake, your the only one for me, I could spend hours in your arms, that's the safest place I know. I'm lucky to have you to myself for the rest of our lives, I want to surprise you with romantic dinners when you come home from a hard day at work, I want to pick up your dirty clothes after I've already cleaned the house, I want to have your coffee ready when you wake up, I want to take care of you like you take care of me. Your my king and I'm your queen, I want to be your everything.
I promise to be patient, to be understanding and to be supportive of your dreams. I promise not to laugh when you stump your toe, although your face turns bright red. I promise not to get mad when you forget to make up your side of the bed. I promise to smother with as much love as possible every morning, every nite and every second in between. Can't you see this beam of happiness that you bring to me? I promise to make you as happy as you make me. Forever and Always, I'm eternally yours.

Sincerely,

The Future Mrs. Kevin Hicks


P.S Everything you do and what you say you know that it all takes my breath away. Maybe its true I can't live without you, maybe two is better than one.

I can't promise you much

I can't promise rainbows or butterflies,
sunny spring days or blue skies,
I can't promise unwise remarks smitten from animosity,
and I can't promise a life without struggles, pain, or rain.
But I can promise that I will love you forever and always,
That with you I can fight any battle that comes our way,
nite or day I know that you will always remain,
likewise my love will never change.

l.o.v.e. happily ever after

When I was a little girl growing up I learned how to love.
I was taught that love was patient, kind, isn't jealous, doesn't sing its own praises and it isn't arrogant.
What I wasn't taught is that love is a battle. You fight every day and night to hold on to and develop a relationship to last forever and always. Threw the struggles and hardships, the laughs and merriment, the late nite tears and the early morning laughter.
Does your heart flutter and the sight of them? Can you barely breath when you hear their voice? Does the sight of them make you feel like flying? I know that after watching Cinderella five million times that dreams come true. "A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep. In dreams you will lose your heartaches. Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams, and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true." There is such a thing as Prince Charming, mine just wears a green and tan uniform, he isn't royalty but he treats me just like his Queen. I've also learned that love is give and take, you have to give more than you take. Take the good and the bad and mix it together and always let the good outweigh the bad.

As Long As I Live

Freckle, thats me and you.

Love is like a freckle, permanent.
So when I say that I love you,
I'm sayin your my cheek and I'm
your freckle & I'm forever stuck on you.

For You I'll Always Wait

I tried to sleep most of the day away in hope that time would fly by. Being apart you realize how much your significant other really means to you. I'm not sure what I miss more, the sound of his voice saying good-nite every nite or when I laid my head to sleep I smelt his cologne still lingering in my hair from that extra minute embrace. I don't know how to put into words what Private Hicks means to me. How can you describe the person that can finish your sentences or knows what kind of ice cream you want when your stuck between birthday cake or strawberry cheesecake? He knows me better than I know myself, most of the time at least. I found this quote by Nicholas Sparks and it says what I feel inside "I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. " I can't say it any better.

I'm a very lucky girl who found the person that I can spend forever with at a very young age. I look forward to the next 100 years to spend growing old, getting into petty arguments then laughing them off, swinging on tire swings, many sunset walks on the beach, plenty of breakfasts in bed and many all night talks.
I've found my best friend, my teacher, my hero, my lover, my physic, my encourager, my confidant, my everything wrapped up in one person.


So no matter how many days, no many how many letters later, no matter how many short conversations, no matter how many restless nites or crying myself to sleep I've found the person that I'll wait forever for.

I've found someone to walk me thru this life.

I've discovered that I am stronger than I thought I was. On April 13, 2010 the man that I was almost never separated from left to pursue his dreams with the Army. So many mixed emotions fluttered my mind; upset, mad, hurt, lonely, excited, supportive, just to name a few. He had stolen my heart then taken it with him some 361 miles eastward. I didn't know to scream or cry, laugh or roll over and die. But I knew deep down inside that this was something that he'd always wanted to do, so who was I discourage on such an embark? So I lifted my head, dried my eyes and put on the hat of a military girlfriend. Now the role is anything but easy, but is in every way rewarding. Seventy-Three long days, Twenty-Three love letters and Ten Twenty minutes phone calls later my heart skipped many a beats when I saw him walking my way, with that black beret on his head and green and tan patchy uniform. The seconds seemed like hours and the tears felt like fire running down my cheeks, no amount of self-encouraging pep talk could hold them back now. His voice made my heart melt and his arms around me made me feel at home for the first time in a while. The next few days were filled with more laughter, more late nite talking and more simple kisses. And now its time to separate again, to cherish the the time I had and hold it close until the next.
This is where my story starts, this is where my journey begins. When the days seem like years and the countdown is started again. I am a proud military girlfriend.